STOP ME

i feel like,
i am fast becoming someone that i hate.

i feel so evil.

i know i shouldn't do this.
i know i shouldn't.

the fear is overwhelming,
the paranoia is still enveloping.

i can't stop this feeling.

it has gotten hold of the better of me.

i need to stop this.
i need to stop the urge to check.
i need to learn how to trust.
i need to trust your assurance.

but everything i need is just a click away from me,
i need to hold that click,
i need to trust you.

i need to.
i'm struggling,
help me,
but i need to.

because,
i love you.